Everyday Emotions

(Originally Posted October 3, 2009)

Despite a milk shake spill it was a perfect day. We spent quality time as a family. We laughed so much... and of course it was always at sheer randomness. But it still was somewhat of an emotional day. God has been faithful in answering your prayers for Aaron and me over the past few weeks. He has undoubtedly given us both more strength than we ever knew we needed. He has filled our hearts with joy. He is continually making us a new again.But there are still and always will be moments that bring tears to my eyes and a knot to my throat...We got out Aaden's photo album and were showing Drew all the pictures of his little brother. It was so painful to see him not know who he was and know that he really did love him so. In heaven they will be best friends. As Drew grows we will just continue to tell him about his little brother living with Jesus and we will always show him the pictures...Among all the fun and seemingly mindless things we were doing yesterday I was reminded that the burden Aaron and I carry is for a lifetime. We made some decisions about how we will celebrate Aaden's birthday next week. We bought a special present in memory of him. We got a baby book for Asher and I missed a family of 3 boys. I longed for our little one to be here. And I fell asleep praying last night that God would show him to me.... let me see his face.

"A mother held her new baby andvery slowly rocked him back and forth,back and forth, back and forth.And while she held him, she sang:I'll love you forever,I'll like you for always,As long as I'm livingmy baby you'll be."Love You Forever, by Robert Munsch